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Dear Dr. Horton,

How do you address concerns with friends over questionable coping methods, when they are highly educated nearly-doctors too? My roommate has always had body image issues, but I did not know how deep they were rooted. In fact, after a recent psych block, I am pretty sure she has an eating disorder. I'm just not sure how to address it.  Nothing seems to be falling apart in her life.  Any tips on how to address uncomfortable suspicions that are unconfirmed?  Without offending my friend?

Signed,

Tip Toeing

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Dear Tip Toeing,

Have you ever heard of the invisible gorilla?

In a famous psychology experiment, participants are asked to watch a video clip of two basketball teams and count the number of successful passes. (1)  Most people get the right number of passes.  But they miss the person in the Gorilla suit who literally moonwalks through the game.  Why?  Because they’re not looking for a gorilla.  And we have a hard time seeing what we are not expecting.

My colleague Ron Epstein uses this concept to help physicians go off autopilot and become more observant (2).  It’s a helpful construct for understanding cognitive error as well.  But I think it has another, more personal application.  When it comes to physician suffering, I think there are a lot of invisible gorillas in the room.

The first thing I want to commend you for is noticing.  Too often in medicine, we’re blind to the suffering of our peers. Sometimes this is because we are struggling to contain or manage our own suffering.  Sometimes it’s because we assume that nobody struggles the way we struggle.  And sometimes we assume our colleagues are “smart” enough to be able to identify when they are in over their heads, and we share the fallacy until things have spiralled totally out of control, or worse, until it’s too late.

This is a fundamental paradox of life in medicine...that being a doctor means you always have insight into your own health.  It’s true that being a doctor can be helpful if you are trying to decide if you have a virus.  But there’s no reason to think it’s particularly helpful if you are trying to decide if you have an illness that is characterized by cognitive distortion.  Meanwhile, the people around you may mistake your intellect for insight…words that are not synonyms.  And before you know it, the invisible gorilla has pulled a Godzilla and torn up not just the basketball court but pretty much everything else in your life.

I had some very hard times in my residency, times when a gorilla followed me into every room.  For years afterwards I used to wonder: didn’t my friends know I was in over my head?  Didn’t they see my suffering?  Wasn’t I worth the discomfort of saying something?  I grieved this abandonment; it was a sadness that stayed with me for at least a decade.  But then, in the years that followed, I missed these same signs in my own friends, and sometimes in my residents and students, and I wondered how I could have been so blind.

Life has taught me that my friends didn’t abandon me.  In fact, they were often watching me closely…closely enough to know I never missed a pass, that I always kept catching the ball.  They thought performance was the metric that would measure whether I was alright.   That’s how they missed the gorilla.

It doesn’t absolve them, or me, or any of us of the responsibility for taking better care of each other.  But it helps give us a framework for how we have failed so miserably as a profession when it comes to judging the wellbeing of people around us.  We have to start looking for gorillas.

Tip toeing, you’ve noticed something amiss.  There’s a moonwalking gorilla in your rented apartment.  Maybe you’ve talked to it a few times and it laughs and tells you it’s not a gorilla, it’s a seahorse.  Or maybe it’s barked like a dog, in the hopes of throwing you off its trail.

You have a choice.  You can pretend it is a seahorse, or a chihuahua, and you can become party to the cognitive distortion.

Or you can sit your roommate down.  You can show her this post.  You can tell her you wrote this letter, because you’re worried sick about her.

Be prepared for anything.  Gorillas are unpredictable.  Enlist the help of friends, family, trusted faculty, and school resources, to help get through to her.   Will that make the gorilla angry?  It might.  But my experience is that in processes that don’t preclude a degree of insight, most people welcome true expressions of caring and concern.  Some people have been wrestling the gorilla on their own for so long that it is a relief to know that backup has finally arrived.

Even if things go the other way, would you rather have an angry friend or a dead friend?  And what would any of us want or expect our friends, family and teachers to do if we had an illness that could impair our judgment, insight, willingness, and ability to seek help?

I think we would want them to be brave, to step up, to help us send that gorilla packing, so we could get on with our lives.

Yours,

Dr. Horton

 

References:

  1. http://www.theinvisiblegorilla.com/gorilla_experiment.html
  2. Epstein, R.M. Attending. Scribner, 2017.  P 17

Dr. Jillian Horton is a general internist in Winnipeg, Manitoba. She was the Associate Dean of Undergraduate Student Affairs at the University of Manitoba from 2014–2018 and now directs programs in wellness and medical humanities at the Max Rady College of Medicine.

She writes a column for CMAJ Blogs called Dear Dr. Horton: 

This week’s edition of Dear Dr. Horton” is a general response to the many excellent questions that were submitted in response to the CMAJ call-out for the “Med Life with Dr. Horton” podcast. Find it originally here: http://wakiganavi.info/horton-podcast-carms-interviews/


Dear classes of 2019,

Ah, CaRMS…that beloved hybrid of Survivor and The Bachelor.  You want to be the last one standing, but hopefully that doesn’t mean accepting a proposal that will become your new personal definition of hell.

I’ve coached hundreds of students through the CaRMS process over the years. My approach draws on my experiences as a long-time clinical teacher,CaRMS interviewer, Associate Program Director, Associate Dean, Royal College committee member, Royal College exam coach, and my interest and expertise in communication, cognitive error and mindfulness.  One thing I’ve learned: there are wrong ways to answer questions, but there is no universally right way.

Some interviews start with a variant of that dreaded question, “Tell us about yourself.”  Too frequently, students use that precious first impression to regurgitate dry information that is already included in their CV.  That’s a sure-fire way to get lost in the crowd.

I counsel students to spend time considering how they will structure this question.  It’s always helpful to open with what I think of as an editorial statement.  “I’m so pleased to have the opportunity to be here with you today.  When I reflect on this question, I think there are three things that help give you a window into who I am as a person.  The first thing is X.  The second thing is Y.  The third thing is Z.”

How do you settle on the content of X, Y and Z?  I recommend looking for your three best positive anchors.  Perhaps you are from a small town, in which case X might be your deep sense of community.  Maybe you’re a runner, and Y is that you are a person who has a long game philosophy in life.  Maybe you’re a person who grew up in tough socioeconomic conditions, or you have spent a lot of time in volunteer roles, and Z boils down to your personal commitment to social justice.   ...continue reading

In a first "Med Life with Dr. Horton" podcast, Dr. Jillian Horton discusses CaRMS, the Canadian Resident Matching Service. In this episode, she is joined by Dr. Moneeza Walji.

They answer these questions:

  • What are some strategies for choosing and ranking programs?
  • Should I have a back-up program in my ranking?
  • What should I do about conflicting interviews?
  • What are interviewers looking for in a candidate?
  • What should I do when I can't think of an answer to an interview question?
  • Should I change my strategy when being interviewed by a resident versus a program director?
  • How does the panel score the interview?
  • Should I disclose a mental health diagnosis or personal struggles?
  • Should I talk about my partner, kids, or family?
  • How do I handle the stress related to CaRMS?
  • And more.

...continue reading